This is story all about how my life got flipped turned upside down I like to take a minute just sit right there, Ill tell you how I became in love with the girl around the way.
In the summer of 1995, I met this beautiful Mexican girl that just moved on my block. I was only in 5th grade and she was in 6th and 1year older than I was. I met her threw my friends that I played with everyday on my block. When I walked outside one day I saw this unfamiliar girl coloring with my friends on the sidewalk. I asked my best friend Brian who she was and he told me she was the new girl on the block. When Brian and I walked over, to go talk to our friends, I sat down right next to the new girl and asked her what her name was. She said Bianca but In a really shy voice.
Through out the whole summer I talked to her and got to really know her. Then when the school year started I remember always getting home and trying to get all my homework done just so I could go outside and talk with her. Then about 4 months after meeting unfamiliar face, I told my friend’s, that I liked Bianca and I wanted to go out with her. But all my friend told me was to go and ask her out myself. So about a month later I finally got the guts to ask her while I was walking her home from our friend’s house. I remember I was so scared while I was asking her and she could tell I was because I was pretty much stuttering while talking to her. Then finally she spoke out saying, “are you trying to ask me out?” Then I said, “yes.” She said she doesn’t know because her mom doesn’t want her to have a boyfriend and she would tell me the next day. Then I went back and told all 5 of our friends that she said she would tell me the next day. The rest of that night we were outside all I could think about is what her answer would be. Then the next day about 12:30p.m. my friend called me up and said that she talked to Bianca and she was going to say “no,” because I was younger than she was. I told my friend to try and convince her into saying yes because I really liked her and that I would be really hurt if she said no. So later that night when all my friends came outside I went and got Bianca to come outside and she said she couldn’t. So I told my friend to get her to come out and she came. When she came outside, she pulled me to the side of my friend’s house to tell me her answer. The thing that I can remember the most was how fast my heart was beating and how scared I was to hear the word no. Then she said Yes but we couldn’t hold hands because her mom would get mad and not let her come out side with all the friends and anymore.
Then we had a somewhat okay relationship until the end of the school year. One night she told me that she wanted to break up with me because she didn’t like how everybody made fun of how I was younger than she was. That was the first time I ever got dumped and it hurt so much that I was to embarrassed to talk to all of our friends on the block because I thought they would make fun of me. Then I decided to move away from San Diego and move to Riverside with my father and my step-mom.
After my first few months in Riverside I started meeting new people and mostly new girls that went to my school. I started talking to this girl that I had thought was really pretty. We talked on the phone every day for about two weeks. Then I asked her out a t school and had the most boring relationship with her. Then I decided to talk different girls and break up with the one I was with. After 8th grade I went through a total of 8 girlfriends that are all my friends now. Then after my first semester in High School I decided that it would be a good idea to come back to San Diego and live with my mom.
The first day I came back to my moms I saw Bianca outside of her house playing with her little brother. I fell in love again because of how beautiful she was. After being gone for three years I forgot how much I loved this girl that lived across the street from me. As a few days went by since I got back I started watching for Bianca and waiting for her to come home from school so that I could see her. Then one day I was walking by with my Walkman on when I caught her chilian and I went to her to say hi. She looked all surprised and gave me a hug. That night her and I talked outside and on the phone till 2:30 a.m. We talked about how things have been since I had left and she told me she would think about me even though I was gone. About a month and a half after I moved back I asked her out. She said her mom wouldn’t like the idea because her mother is very religious and she is against the young teen relationship. So she said No. I remember filling down for a while but then I got over it and started talking to her on the phone and going to the park with her. Then one day out of the blue she asked me out and she told me that she realized that she was getting older and she wanted her mom to realize she was getting older also. Like the fool I am I said no because I was talking to this girl at school that later I found out had a boyfriend. I could tell she was hurt but she still talked to me as if nothing happened.
After A few months gone by since I moved back, her and I were talking and I told her that she meant more than anything in the world did to me and I wanted her back. She said we should go out so we did. In the beginning of this new relationship we held hands and got to really know each other very well. In the summer of ’99 my new love and me really were spending quality time together. During the summer we really were close and we wanted to do something besides holding hands and giving each other hugs, We wanted to kiss. We were both very scared to do so because her and I knew each other for a long time and she wanted to make sure I was the right person for her first kiss. We talked about it for a few weeks and then finally it happened the first kiss.
After that first kiss something inside of me was making me fill different about her. I was falling in love. Sometime at the end summer I had told my cousin how much I cared for this girl that I have known for almost 5 years. My cousin told me that I shouldn’t fall in love because girls can play you for a fool. But I was to much in Love so I told her I loved and she was shocked. She didn’t say I love you back but I understood because this is her first serious relationship. Then about two weeks after I told her I loved her she said it back to me and then I realized I would probably be with her for a long, long time.